Lord, it hurts but you're still God

Lately I've been experiencing too much stress. Work and family related, plus some issues with Papa Ber. I've been sick for several days already that's why I can't go to work for 2 days na. I always cry myself to sleep. All those sleepless nights, skipped meals, too much thinking...... Ahhhhh! It's killing me! :'(

I tried diverting my attention from things that makes me weak but I still end up crying. I often think to the point that I lose control, and get mad at Papa Ber. 

It's not me. So not me. I used to be strong. Brave and bubbly girl. I miss my old self. I want my old self back. This little thing called stress is eating me alive. I don't want this. I don't want THIS!

I wanted to get rid of this pain for so long. I do pray. But I feel deep within that I'm missing something. Then I googled this song I read online. I searched for the lyrics of the song, "Lord, it hurts but you're still God". I cried upon reading each word. It hits my tired heart. 

          "Lord, it hurts but you're still God"

Many times I have wondered why

I'm going through this place.

Is it something I've done wrong?

Lord, Am I the one to blame?

You're the answer to my problems

Even though it still remains,

I've heard the darkest hour is just before the dawn.

Lord it hurts, but you're still God

I know that you able to remove this thorn from me.

By Faith I know you'll make a way even when I can not see.

You're my only hope in this world, the one I lean upon.

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God

Lord I'll trust in you with all my heart.

I won't try to understand

why you've not taken away this burden,

I'll just leave it in your hands.

Cause I know your time is not like mine

I believe you have a plan.

Until then I'll do my best to be strong.

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God

I know that you are able to remove this thorn from me

By Faith I know you'll make a way even when I can not see

You're my only hope in this world, the one I lean upon

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God

So I will not be discouraged though the battle rages on

I know you won't forsake me Lord This is where I belong

I know that you are able to remove this thorn from me

By Faith I know you'll make a way even when I can not see

You're my only hope in this world, the one I lean upon

Lord, it hurts, but you're still God

I cried. My heart cried. I might experience all the pain this world can give. But it doesn't matter because I have God. I have a BIGGER God, bigger that any problem. I may lose all these earthly things but I will still have Him. He will not leave me nor forsake me. I have to have faith. I know I should trust Him. I should trust all His promises. I will keep on holding on to my favorite Bible verse, Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and future." I have faith. I am Faith. I pray that everything will get better in His most precious time. I just need to trust Him.